3 months have passed since the start of my Yoga Teacher Training and my mind has been awash with asanas (postures), pranayama (breathing techniques) , mantras, chants, koshas (layers of self).
That first weekend was pure radiance. I know the decision was completely right to be in that room listening to the teachers share their knowledge when during the opening chant tears fell silently down my cheeks. I could hardly contain my joy. I stopped chanting and tried to maintain my grip until my inner guru had a quiet word and reminded me I NEVER have to try or grasp. I can just “be” and if that involves crying rivers or staring at the sky for hours on end then that’s just how it will be.
Moment by moment during that weekend I opened, whether it was during a posture or a satsang (group of person’s who assimilate truth).
My belief is we are conditioned to keep a lid on our emotions. Most of the time to smile and say “yeh all if fine”. Well not in my camp.
It’s so important to be true to yourself and this is my main intention for embarking on this course. If I can live my truth I am then giving permission to others to live theirs.
Practicing yoga literally puts you in touch with your emotions that you have suppressed. By moving into the postures you begin feeling. This can be uncomfortable and painful and I have found personally you need to respect your edge.
My wrists, knees and elbows are holding a lot of “stuff”. My quest is to unblock the storage of emotions to release a lighter, more liberated Louise. Little by little I am noticing changes on and off my yoga mat.
I won’t lie and say it’s been easy but I really can’t imagine it any other way. In between the postures I’ve noticed this space, this silence and you know what, this is where the real transformation begins.
Take some time every day to really listen to the peace within. We all are at peace, we have just forgotten what it feels like. Just scratch underneath the surface and voila it was here all along.
I have literally been transported to self and even though it feels like i have travelled miles the mileage clock is stating zero. I have been here all along. Realisation has burst into my soul. Actually i can even feel the energy within, the inner self. I can feel my physicality as just that, but hang on, we need to RESPECT this body as it is giving us life in this form, but it’s important to feel the SELF and realise that SELF is not just the body.